Timeline {([Click to read])}

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Travis Williams and his lone Heart

It made him never want to love again. This was it, his final feelings bled though. Travis B. Williams is standing over his heart as it beats its last words. Nothing can hurt him now, not a single person… not even himself. He always had this problem of falling for the impossible. He fell for the girls’ whose eyes stole his time of day, never the night; their voices that sang him to heaven, only to visit. They said he was something different. He had something nobody ever would. Everyday he bled for these girls and everyday he sang his heart out. Beautiful lyrics showered into his mind day after day, but to his heart’s ache, his word of love never accepted. He was falling for these girls… just to break his heart. Nothing was ever wrong with Travis, just he had this amazing imagination. Fed by stories, just stories, that he was able love and happiness. These girls gave him bliss. Life never had happy conclusions nor sad ones… life just continues. For Travis this meant a sacrifice…he had lived in serene dreams, and he swam in the bottom of the bucket. The first lasted none more then seconds at a time, never being worth of value to him. The second was just no way to live a life. Therefore, at dusk he dragged himself from his dreams to the dark street and cut away his heart. He watched it search its new environment for a meaning, a purpose. Screaming in terror of finding out what to be useless means, Travis held up a mirror to his poor heart.
“This is what you are and always were… pain.”
He stood there watching and listening to the last moments of his beating, bleeding heart as he died on the street. Travis B. Williams joined the rest of the kids at school that day lost his uniqueness, he became normal… he became them.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

You Knew It So (rough)

when i said something was wrong,
i meant someone.
she had a liar's toungue,
and was prone to flirt.
she would drag boys on there knees,
pleading for happiness.

master of coy
professinal at cute
and an expert in craft

when i said something was wrong,
i meant someone.
she has the body of an angel,
but a mind belonging to hades.
eyes you could stare forever in,
and never find your soul again.

she's a beast inside.
addicted to your pain,
she's a beast.
ready to take you down,
she's a beast.
her eyes set to kill,
she's a beast.

master of coy
professinal at cute
and an expert in craft

she will slaughter you with a smile
you haven't a chance
words of farewell

ALL Systems, Go

it's bad this time.
she's got me good.
a fatal shot to the heart.
love is another thing lost.
lost to her.
she takes everything.
steals my breath from my lungs.
and thoughts in my mind.
it's really bad this time.
i can't speak when she leaves my voice.
i can't see when she leaves my sight.
i can't hear when she leaves my audience.
i can't feel when she leaves my reach.
i can't love when she leaves me.
it's bad this time.
i've fallen hard.
an easy target on my chest.
i showed her my love.
and now it's gone.
with her forever.
i don't mind.
i'll her my best.
i'll give her my all .
it's really bad this time.

Friday, August 21, 2009

A Pod Person

i had a dream last night that i was standing in a bathroom.
standing...oh so quiet. no sound at all.
it was like i was watching myself.
a suspensed witness in a theater.
slowly i drew my hand to eyes.
corrupting and morphing my face, to things i'm not.
animals, beasts, monsters,
i dug my fingers into my skin, hardly bleeding
Larry Talbot, Nosferatu, and Frankenstein.
tearing bits and peices to the sink.
Krueger, Voorhees, and Hewitt.
blood only on the finger tips, the face is clean.
the skin rip off...the eyes ripped out...teeth in the sink.
he....i look up and see in the mirror splatered with blood.
i see myself.
the same green blue eyes.
the same acne ridded face.
the same crooked teeth.
it's me.

Serene Dreams

i had a wonderful dream, girl.
i owned the world, as far as eye can see.
i made my own land, with these two hand
i built this city, paved each road.
i paved our street last; i constructed our house last too,
so everyone else could envy what we had.
the house you always wanted, the one of your dreams.
i wish i could live dreams... so i could do this.
you deserve so much, but i can only provide what i have.
at least we have our dreams... i love you, girl. goodnight.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Him and Her

his heart full of hurt.

as he fell in love.
words hardly crossed his lips.
most afraid to become a casuality of war.
he didnt mind his shut mouth.
as long as he could smile.
crooked teeth.
his mind wanders and ponders
futures and new battles.
white flags arent part of his blood.
the only white he had left was innocence.

her heart tattered
as she wait for a reason to heal
ghosts and memories.
are her enemies.
she speakes through her smiles.
making her sound so pleased.
never break character.
never breaks down.
she doesnt want travel
she wants to build bridges
and meet at the middle

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

3407/LOVE

jumping bridges to picking flowers.
holding hands to taking a bullet.
i'll fight your past with you,
if you let me build our future.
let me wipe your tearful face.
make stars out of each cry.
kissing eyes closed. wishing.
to six feet under and two feet apart.

Failure by Choice

looking down and seeing the world.
the final minute.
time seems to fly by.
the earth is opening her arms.
ready to catch her favorite soul.
fourty five seconds
touching the clouds.
flying.
living dreams people only wish for.
thirty seconds.
the cars seem like ants nows.
leaving and entering the hill.
meeting the colony.
fifteen seconds.
the grass becomes detailed.
every blade sways with the wind.
waves in the lake urge you to a landing.
ten seconds.
the ants look up.
your the entertainment tonight.
five seconds.
close your eyes.
breathe in.
tomorrows headline "falling star".
goodnight.
four...
three...
two...
one...
zero

Monday, August 17, 2009

Somethings die for no reason

Day after day, Charles D. Stewart would wake up, feeling unappreciated. losing the thoughts that made him so rich in life, seemed like the were being taken for granite. even by himself. his body aged by depression, and his mind weak by his appetite for boredom and laziness. he claimed that writed block was the culprit, but a 5 years absence is far to much to borrow. alcohol is his last friend, and she's leaving. just like the house and car. writing was the only happiness he had, now he nothing. he's dying. a slow painful death.
a man with a silver soul and heart of gold now suffers on the bare floor, day after day.

Chapter 1

they opened a pop-up storybook.
they being a mother and daughter, both young in age.
it was begining to be late.
the sun over the mountains, beams of light grasping they're 15 minutes of fame... becoming the sunset.
it was they're favorite bedtime story.
it had everything in it, a perfect story.
one to remember, pass on to the children.
they read it everynight since the little girl was born, six years i think.
both of them new every single word and felt like they new each character personally.
durring the day they would even further the story, creating twists and loop holes within the story.
nothing was better... nothing more interesting than this story.
it was the one of the only ways to connect to her daughter, giving smiles that lasted forever.
day in and day out, there was never a day they didnt read it.
tears and cracks in the pages and binding showed its use.
time wasn't a friend to the poor book.
soon enough the characters grew bored of the same act and simply jumped off the page.
tape....glue....staples.
nothing would help.
the actors and actress grew old and tired of performing everynight the same gig, the same time.
one by one they jumped.
next were the words.
once read in roman new times, now read in old english.
each letter became smudged of the years rips and tears offen interupted the normal reader.
...but to the girls this didnt matter.
they knew this book inside and out,
and everynight they would open this once cherished pop-up storybook at the same time,
never having to turn a page...
see a word...
hear a character.
every night they open a pageless book,
read it cover to cover.
and fall asleep together.

Time and Time

what if i were made of words.
tiny pencil scribbles.
with a dash of pen and marker.
a splash of paint.

now with every mark,
there is a way to erase
and remake.

but i dont like this at all.
people change.
and consume others.
copy and paste.

i admire the authors
who dont change themselves
but expand...
they create more then just the ordinary

they make new people.
real people.
they live and breathe

you just sulk and complain
you just lurk at the bottem of the world
scavangering for food and taste
your just a barbaric cannibalistic machine

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Journey to a far. Thoughts from a far.

1.) the saddest soul, sailing the soundless sea.

2.) hand on chest. i feel my heart. it beats deep. like it has it's own little secret. i hear it crying everynight. sorrow. "share your pain,my hurt little heart. let me level your burden. because when you down i'm out." scream. use my lungs. my voice. all you need from me. im here to help. just keep beating.

3.) the sand looks so pretty as i look at it being swallowed by the ocean. lit up by the twinkle of stars. the darkest skies soothe my mind as i all my demons go. they scatter between the lights above. happy to be free. just free. that how i am here. sitting. on the the sand of the pretty beach i've never seen. happy

4.) maybe i look up at the stars, to keep the tears from falling down.

5.)if i was dying and needed a new heart... would you give me your lungs?

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

insanity?

i found the birthplace of creativity.
within the walls of the asylum
the ones who are broken
and allwe try to do is fix
the ones with gears working backward
and we dont try to understand
the ones that are argry for being happy
laughing at nothing
staring into space
they believe what we dont know
or at least the ones that cant think
maybe you dont have to think...
just let go.
sanity the anchor.
pull it up and hide it within
we're sailing the open seas
of the unconscience
smile you catatonic bastard
your making your own world
you're now god

who i'm not

omeone once told me to be myself.
well why would i want to be myself
when i could just be.
when i could be anyone i wanted
why can't i travel to the stars
why cant i see the bottem of the ocean
enter a volcano
assassinate a leader
create imposibilties.
and destroy realitys.
make the ideal real
and real seem different.
why cant i help people with simple advice
or be something you never seen before?
why am i stuck in this body.
why not travel thru hell. and walk up to heaven.
why cant i talk to god? and sit with the great budduh
can i not write well?
write something as great as Dante has?
why should i be myself.
when there is so much i could do with out limits

The Stairs of Question

let this be the step that frees me
stuck in this square of M.C escher
i see the soiders
crawling these step with smiles
and ignor the undertones
and reality i bring
this building...nothing more then paper
ink sketchings
static full of life
and yet full of truth
see the think they are moving up
no matter what direction they walk.
they dont question how this logically
is impossible. they just need to feel happy.
well i'm done
the symmetry and illusion of progress
the mind is frail and needs to learn contantly
or thier fauxsmiles may turn to life and purpose.
see now this is where morality comes to play.
do i become the hero and rescue the pitiful?
or do i become different and exile myself
to happyness
as we long for...
but dont understand.

Stealing candy

i am not argry
nor am i sad, disappointed, or apathic.
sure it was a hope and dream.
that one day i thought id be happy.
maybe each one feels like its the one to hit the spot.
but something always happens
and your let to wonder about it.
a "what if" that lurks in your mind
something that will always feel ideal.
but go on.
you'll be happy.
and someday i will be too.
just got to keep searchin

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Curiosity Killed the Cat

why not run away.
the door behind is still open,
with no intent on closing itself.
yet curiosity is overwhelming.
cats are smart.
and they were killed.
but what is at the end oof this hallway?
behind the lock door...
the walls are blank.
every step pulling closer.
like shadows of hand crawling,
amoungst the cracks of the hardwood floor.
each plank crying under the weight.
dust falls done throught their opening mouths.
cobwebs inhabit the ceiling.
draping down like a thick fog.
with every step,
the presence of the key grow in my mind.
as with every step my hand heat up.
the key feels so cool and soothing.
is this key the cure to this fever?
soon it will let my thoughts and feeling free
as i open the door.

Burning Her Down

what is left to burn.
when traveling the road twice.
making mistakes.
and learning lessions.
it's a cycle.
not hard to comprehend.
why travel back.
matchstick and box.
lighting ashes to ashes
arson fills hearts of love.
shame is on your sholders,
if you burn her down again.