Time To Let Go

do you feel guilt?

your eyes i see naught.

what we do and what we see

i wrote you this, a little bit of hope

you see naught.

do you feel shame?

your warmth i see naught.

what we can and what we can't

a paper with letters, written with love

you see naught.

do you feel love?

your heart i see naught.

what we are and what we're never

drawn in a black and white, a living soul

you see naught

Earthed

eye camera spy

ocean waters dark

with the depth

mountains gray rock

peek-a-boo the cloud

grass green as paint

sway champagned wind

trees stand brute

as cut by blade

barren land dirt

scars seen from space

wrinkled aged and worn

satellite eyes backed turn

look away from disaster

Another Lie

turn me upside down
tilt your head
never will you understand
and words from my voice
love
rub your face on my skin
push me, nudge me, ask me
beg me, force me, leave me
these words so foreign
love
pull me apart. fall me apart
look in side me, split my head
read my mind highly defined
every word is clear and ordered
love
change each piece and build your own
hand made the message is still the same
no matter how you make me
this word is forever, even if it's not me
love

Split.

so weak, so small

i need you

i feel so weak.

i feel so small.

you make me, big

you make me, warm

vulnerable without you

you are my shield

consume my dangers

absorb my tears

never let me go to waste

cover me whole and tight

jagged teeth and a strong bite

never let me out

hide me in your sleeves

shadow my face in your hood

protect me from the hunters

blend all shades of earth

be my armor. my skin and bone.

call me with spine when whole

jacket, coat. myself.

Final Dance

i love you once and i'll love you forever.

scars or memories it's all the same,

'til death.

no matter how ugly you were to me.

you have such a beautiful mask.

oh shame, the masquerade.

left on the floor, here i lay.

no more then ghosts occupy me.

regret. regret. regret. regret.

what will i think as i sleep

not resolved to dream

i beg no vaccine for this bleak end

numb is how i feel, how i'll go.

consumed by guilt. i'm sorry

eyes never closing, bury me as is.

with all these word spilling from mind.

worthless words

Depress.

i blew a hole though my mind with a word.

it's name is depress. i've know it since fifth grade.

it comes and goes since then.

you would have never guessed it and i were friends.

we look so different, it so tall and vast: i so meek and tiny.

it asks a lot from me.

we have a grand friendship.

it asks a lot from me.

i give everything i have.

and it gives everything it has.

like digging a hole, i give the dirt, by working.

it gives me a home, to hide.

i hide when things are wrong.

and it wraps itself around me as if it were a blanket.

in this hole i have wrapped around by it and it's dirt.

home.

Exist.

i never see you

in the rooms sitting in corners

in the halls with voice echoing

when daydreaming on the walls

or safe and sound in words said

you've disappeared from sight

and no trail to follow, who is lost

hide and seek with no seeker

Infected.

when we are sick,

a virus as we call it.

we can develop a symptom,

one very well known.

over one-oh-eight,

and life is in peril.

inside it raises our heat,

temperature boil our blood.

outside our skin is flushed,

warm to the touch.

there is an invader,

something foreign.

coming curious,

never worried.

turning every stone,

never thinking twice.

sticks and stones,

breaking ones heart and bones,

malicious and scarring,

always leaving their mark.

turning every stone,

never thinking twice.

the Earth is faint,

she has an infection.

the sight of it is sicking,

parasites grueling.

crying floods from pain,

face cracking dry of heat.

losing her cool,

she is starting to burn.

the fiery spells,

purging this virus infection.

infierno,infierno.

do you not feel my flame?

a burn deep down inside

sweatin' under this collar

beadin' down the face

caliente, caliente, como en el fuego

quemadura, quemadura, como en el fuego

drop down to the floor

dont stop, dont stop

hot, hot, like in the fire; burn, burn,

burn, burn, like in the fire,

the heat ignites my skin

boils my blood inside

embers glow and fade to ashes

blackened body crumbles from within

como en el fuego, como en el corazón