hell? alone?

am i dead.
the mask isn't working i can't cry
no matter how much i eat
i feel empty
my body feels sore
my heart isn't broken
i'm just heartsick
like i'm far away from where my heart is
and there isn't a way to pump the blood there
i feel like i'm slowly dying
but i'm fully alive
i can shut my eyes to pretend everything is perfect
but it's hell and i'm frozen
i'm stuck, i'm sick
laying in my death bed of immortality
unable to weep and grieve
just to look forward
as if i'm a prisioner of plato's cave
but there no light
and i'm blind...
i cant even see the truth you want me to see
your love has killed me.
and i'm dead
i'm here
in hell
thankyou